Pefect?

2011-05-12T21:20:00.000+08:00

Oh, blog been dead sooner or later. But still this blog holds my life in secondary life. I'm gonna let it live on itself. My life has been great. Enough. At least I'm happy. YEAH SEEYA

2011-04-12T17:54:00.003+08:00

Okay, 2nd day of school.
Thought it would suck consider that i spent it on a 2 hour talks of safetly exit and stuffs. Got to play amazing race. From there on, got to made friends. One guy damn like Shikun!

I'm so lazy to type anymore. Well Lesson starting tomorrow. Wish me luck!

2011-03-20T22:38:00.002+08:00

One thing in my mind now.
Basketball.
Basketball.
Basketball.

Bryan told me he believe one day he will make it.. cause he have more important than courage he have patience..

I from the opposite end didn't thought of that way. Whenever i met someone stronger or better than me, i always seemingly gave up. I had the mentality that i am never good enough. But I can't do this anymore. I'm gonna fight for the spot even if it's being a bench player!

2011-03-11T01:39:00.002+08:00

So here i am blogging. I know i don't blog as often as before. To be honest i love my blog, just that things just get bored for this past 4 months. I just realise when we are not in love, we feel empty or it is just me. Well what can i say.

Yes, sometimes we want things so badly so much that you would think of her/him badly. But the truth is did we consider what we did so they left? okay maybe sometimes it is just them. But what are the odds that it's our mistake?

❒ Single ❒ Taken ✔ No one likes me

2011-03-03T10:29:00.002+08:00

Funny how sometimes, you're missing someone so much. But when that somebody shows up... You did nothing. Sometimes i ask myself why do we wait for something that's already gone? Because there's that bit of hope inside us that tells us maybe it'll come back if I wait long enough.

What i am trying to say is that this few thoughts of mind are usually what most people did. Well, School gonna start next month. I hope i am ready to work "hard" this year. We shall see then.

2011-02-22T21:27:00.002+08:00

Had organised my chalet on 20th to 22th, could say it is 1/2 success. It was really great during the first day. The only problem i had is there's no mahjong which mostly the groups would play and with that comes the downfall. Watch two movies on the same day.

No strings attached.
This was a really heartening show for me. I didn't know i can get so emotional with this film. To be afraid of love, you would be alone for the rest of your life. Rate 9/10

127 hours
This teaches us not to be snotty and safety always first. When you are on the verge of dying. You would show the signs of desperation and regret the things you done. Like not answering your mum's phone or breaking up with your girlfriend. Tons of things that you had done wrong and wish you could undo it.

I am really grateful to people who made it to my chalet and endure the 2nd night. I know it's tough But hey! we made it!.

OH BRYAN BROUGHT ME MY FRED PERRY WALLET~ OH LOVE DIE HIM

hesitation

2011-02-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

Chinese new year has come. Time for red packet! (:, now my life is back on track well atleast i have my goals now back again. So happy that i can have my very first chalet! the question is should i invite?

2011-01-18T09:16:00.003+08:00

Everyone seems to move on with life. You can see friend leaving your life and some new friend entering. Some friends you wish to keep but they leave before saying good bye. No point pursuing, if they leave just give them " Fuck off "

2011-01-10T21:53:00.003+08:00

Got my result this afternoon, and what can i really expect. I wish i never had come today. My spirits and confidences are all gone when i got my result, i didn't know i would do that badly. It's great when you see your friends get all their results and happy. It's another thing when u see your results and feeling speechless and wish everyone disappear. I guess i will never succeed. I'm too useless. This fews words just circling through my mind. Higher nitec in business studies? what if i am not up to it? What if i choose wrong.

2011-01-06T01:40:00.004+08:00

Saw Gulliver's travel. It's brilliant to me, maybe because i imagine i was the main character. I know i am useless, but it feels nice to be good for something. Having a world, that people treat you importantly which the real world treat you like shit. Sometimes imagination makes my day.

All above rest, i hope i pass. come on 24 point or lesser please.

2011-01-01T09:44:00.000+08:00

New year has arrived. 2011. Hopefully this year would be a successful one for me. Working today~ Wish me luck. Let the picture do the talk then.

2010-12-28T18:53:00.002+08:00

Have a full court match at the newly opened court area.
Struggle through the game trying to find a place to post. Noted that my defence is too upfront, well when u are in to the game how would u stop. I know i had to control my temper. If this is a refereed match, i would have been foul out.
Well what to do, okay now its time to put 110% on work.

2010-12-22T20:34:00.002+08:00

It's been awhile, i've been tired for this past few days. Life's actually pretty good for me. But its seem that i am taking it for granted.

I am in no condition to pin point anyone mistakes, sometime i just get over my head. I love to judge people and give a straight i don't like you face which is a bad habit of mine. I just wish i am a good person but its seem that all i do is lie and betray my own conscious. The worst part is i can't lie, because i alway get caught.

I just wish result day would come early and i can then choose the path i am going for the rest of my life.

Sorry is the only thing i can say to you.

2010-12-13T22:22:00.004+08:00

there said its all. :D what a mess we made, or should i say what a mess i made :D

2010-12-13T00:14:00.003+08:00

Been listening to Christmas song, for like 5 days at work, i was mostly at doing stocks at the storeroom, seriously i mess up the place. I didn't have the seriousness in me. But today i tried giving 110% and manage to finish packing up the women's item. Thanks to JunCun and HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO HIM yet again.

The song Last Christmas by Glee cast was on my playlist for today. Really love that song. It's great when u can describe your life with songs. I know i can be happy and i will. You always been in my mind. Don't get hurt anymore please.

buddy?

2010-12-11T20:20:00.002+08:00

It's been quite awhile since i blogged, i realize Life is not too bad for people like me who still can blog about my own life. I realize i should not take things for granted.

I think from this few days i have develop or create a imaginary Sean out. So everything i want to say come from his mouth and only i can hear. I know its sound wrong but thats what she said.

There is one problem with me. I can't seem to do anything with my lagness. It's is a problem for me at work. Seriously I'm like a windows 95 while others is Window 7. -,-

Get out of my head please. I shouldn't text you at the first place.

2010-12-04T19:55:00.003+08:00

Working in Shanghai Tang is a dream come true. Met quite a few friends there. Though i am slow, they are patient with me. I want strive in working there. I want my this few months at there to be meaningful. Almost know my way through Ngee Ann City and Takashimaya. Everyday fast food, luckily i am not gaining any weigh FOR NOW ^^.

We look at life like it is so simple. Ya, its simple. For those who need not work hard with pure talent or some who is rich. But the problem still lies in us. Why do we beg to differ. Maybe we are just not suited for this kind of life with what we have now. Sometimes desire got the best of us. But luckily for me, Some wishful thinking of mine now is gone. I almost ... you, just wish u felt the same for me. Well like one of my friend say. Why must we guys give in? Why must woman control us? I believe we are all equal. Working hard to save a relationship could be fruitful if both are willing to. But if there's only one party doing all this make no sense.

Soon i would get my result and see what road lie in my way. Life actually have been easy for me. But my greediness get the best of me. I want car, entertainment, money, a family, love, and more. I mean doesn't everyone want it too? But it's okay to dream big. But we have to be able to know what's reality and dream.

Today have our regular basketball session. It's been great for me as i think i played well. Have a few highlights of my opinion. I am changing more and more to being a shooting guard and a small forward. I just have to improve on my passing and handling of the basketball.

Well that sums up a small part of my life. Everyone all the best

2010-12-02T08:36:00.000+08:00

Working~
Will post when i have time

2010-11-23T12:55:00.002+08:00

Prom night was Great, meet up with all my friend. Seriously done a lot and i mean lots of stupid things. I Scrambled as fast as i could for the games and my phone drop, though nervous i like it. OMG, prom king has a new dark house king, i thought it would have been a close race between Jeremy and Kenneth. But wow boy i was wrong, and the PROM KING 2010 goes to ONG Yi Peng aka Black gym master( Ong the hero )

oh work, why haven't u call me.

Fated uh?, sigh.

2010-11-18T23:25:00.002+08:00

so true, i am cam-whoring like today,
Basketball for like 1 hour in the morning, after that went to Jame's mom shop to see shawn dye hair, after that went Jp to get their prom clothing and Movies.
thanks again James's mom for styling my hair. I LOOK GORGEOUS ! haha
Chalet tomorrow! please don't have spoiler and cock up. Done !

2010-11-16T17:01:00.002+08:00

Is money that important? What happen to friends forever, nothing matters without you?, i love you?.
Apparently reality isn't so much of a fairy tale i guess. Just waiting for 19th to reach. Chalet. OH hooray? i am not smiling

Happiness

2010-11-15T08:02:00.003+08:00

Yesterday have a blast with Shawn, Syafiq, AZ, Fir, Micky. I can't believe i tried the chicken claypot from a thai restaurant. I guess there is a start of everything. Great. In the end, i brought a spec. Well i don't have to worried much. (: cos i already got my blazer and shirt. Just have to get my shoes from Iluma and I'm done :D Weee

2010-11-13T07:32:00.001+08:00

O's is over and done with, now all is left is time for us to get our result. Ever felt, you might never make it? well i do.

2010-11-10T20:24:00.002+08:00

Ever wonder what it's like to be on the moon. Have u imagine that someone close to you just died or leave you?
I'm tired of people saying it's alright , time will heal. Sometime, i feel numb like nothing but me breathing lifelessly. Confusing. Clueless of the path i am about to take. So what if i make it through O's after that? poly? what if poly sucks for me because I'm a douche bag. All this worries , is it necessary?.
Left mcq to go, wish me luck.

2010-11-05T23:44:00.002+08:00

We all want to be happy, want to be love. So why aren't we? Because we become experts at sabotaging our own happiness, feeling like victims, when, in fact, it's the choices we made. The bad habits, the vices, the inability to show love and compassion. These are the things that tear us down. We aren't victims. We are assassin when it comes to love and happiness.

2010-11-03T10:44:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, people say things they don't mean or do things they can't do back. Sometime we do things we can't take back. So we feed ourselves to starve the pain. We all afraid of something. What I done is who I am. But what I'll done is not who I'll be

2010-10-30T22:06:00.001+08:00

If it is easy, i won't be here typing. Feel damn lousy now. Morning felt great as i walk out of the house. After that, it's different. I Won't be good enough. No i won't.

2010-10-26T22:07:00.002+08:00

Olevel Math, half done, tomorrow finish up, and i could study my humanity and i think i given up my science. Oh, great. I should be happy now. maybe.

2010-10-23T10:48:00.003+08:00

another week has pass, O's starting next monday. I have done all those thing i had to do (not studies) and now i am ready to continue with O's. Am i ready? Math c5 english d7 Humanity c5 Chinese c5 Science f9 Fnn c6
28 points, nice one sean :(

2010-10-17T18:09:00.004+08:00

Went to Marina bay sand hotel to celebrate Ang Zhi Ying birthday, I have make quite a bunch of friends at there! :D surprisingly i am able to! So i stayed overnight. Went walking around at 4 am went to Singapore flyer to chill. Sad part is i fail. I FAIL .

Me : Hey what's your name again?
. : .
Me : oh hey, i think i got something to ask you.
. : Ya? what?
Me : Erm, suddenly i forget already. Later i remember i ask you again.
Few hours later~
Me : Hey, i remember what i wanted to ask you about already, Ya i wanted your number.
. : Ohhh, i don't have a phone right now
Me : Oh. Any ways i can contact you?
. : Nope
Me : ... (walk away in embarrassment)

( Again this is not me ! )

It's coming

2010-10-15T20:36:00.001+08:00

10 more days till Olevel really get started.
Nevertheless. I am doing well with Fnn, But neglect Science, I should not being giving up on this right? Yea, i guess so. But it is so hard :( Well i must do well, No cock up this time round, End it with a bang!

just the way you are.

2010-10-10T15:22:00.001+08:00

I've got to say i am not meant for midnight studies. 1-2 am is kinda okay, but after that i crash.
Well at least i get something done didn't i?
I

ly

i know it can be done

2010-10-09T00:33:00.002+08:00

Slowly, u are being erased in my mind.
Each day not mentioning you.
Each day as strangers.
Each day i see you being with someone else.
Each day as i heard how you were doing well.
I controlled myself to avoid in any best way i can for after this 3 month, we would never meet again.
Each day i try not to look at our photo and compare with his. I know i should not be doing this, but i can't control.
Oh.

One reason why two people drift.

2010-10-05T21:10:00.003+08:00

Usually, when two people drift, it’s always one person who starts it off.. It’s always one person who starts to puts less effort, who doesn’t pay as much attention, who doesn’t make as much time as before.. It’s never for no reason, either. Something/someone must’ve gotten in the way. I wish ... nevermind

2010-10-03T21:09:00.002+08:00

“It’s important to understand when to just let things go.
I’m not saying don’t try. I’m not saying don’t fight with everything you’ve got for the things you want. But when life doesn’t go according to plan - when the person you thought was made for you ends up with someone else, when you don’t get your dream job, or when something else lets you down - you have to learn to just let it go.

Ultimately, you can’t control everything and griping tightly to your shattered expectations isn’t going to result in any positive gain. So you learn to move on. You learn that bigger and better things are out there. You keep your chin up and you get back on your feet.”

I find this from tumblr , This is so true. Hope i can apply to myself

imy, Mum (:

2010-10-02T21:05:00.002+08:00

Study mode is on i guess?, seriously i made so many mistake during my papers. My Mock paper one got 37/80, how to made it? Sometime i just need some encouragement to get me through. Hopefully during O's i won't be struggling as much as now. Which i took 3 hour to complete my math paper one. I love basketball, but too bad studies come first. I have to sacrifice this one month, SEAN u can do it.

Thanks for the praise, I really needed.

2010-09-29T15:29:00.003+08:00

\
sometimes i just feel like destroying everything i have now.

Oh Please !, Seriously? Does it count if the the person u love move on?, if that the case, is that love? if you love someone you won't do anything to hurt the person. This is just positive side of lies

Having Prelim exams this week and yes i did not studied for biology and yes i will flunk it. Tomorrow having both food and nutrition and History. I am going to revise on them later on if i don't procrastinate.

2010-09-25T18:23:00.001+08:00

Yea, from bad to worst.
i really don't know what i want and why i am doing this.
Reality check, and i have to wake up soon. Oresle...

2010-09-18T23:41:00.002+08:00

Had a great basketball session.
I put 100% on the matches, I know i am not perfect but i tried.
Tomorrow finish paper 2 i must!

2010-09-18T08:32:00.001+08:00

This week is finally ended. Feel really not good of the preliminary examination as i never work hard for it. Soon, few more month Sean, lets leave fajar on a high note!

2010-09-17T22:50:00.000+08:00

Tomorrow then post!

2010-09-16T17:38:00.002+08:00

wonder why media so fucked up, Its because of this secret society call illuminati. Even Sport like basketball has illuminati member, Lebron James and Kobe Bryant is one of them. Famous celebrity, like Britney Spears, Jay z, Rihanna are all slave of satan. Many more that had not been list out. Oh my god. am i one?

2010-09-15T21:38:00.001+08:00

Bye- If you really knew me, I’m not the type to say “bye” so you must have done something to piss me off and I don’t want to talk anymore.
Whatever- I’m done talking about this. Just shut up.
Alright/Fine, then- I give up. Just think whatever you want.
Wow/Really?- Did you really just say/do that? You are so stupid.

2010-09-15T21:25:00.000+08:00

Too much to say, yet.

2010-09-15T09:33:00.001+08:00

i think i say it too before with that epic expression.

Its never going to be easy if u didn't try, but if u did try and fail. Well too bad, its life.

2010-09-11T22:32:00.001+08:00

Really gone (: with them.

Today, was a bad day. Too bad, i crush an opponent's toes. Ownage.

2010-09-08T19:30:00.001+08:00

God, why am i still at here blogging ? i wonder.

I’ve been stood up, fucked over, lied to, backstabbed and I still manage to keep my head up.

2010-09-07T21:28:00.002+08:00

Quote from Syafreak
I love sleep. Sleeping is good. Sleeping makes you forget that shitload of pain you’re feeling. Sleeping means drifting off to some other world. A world very different from yours. And somehow, after you wake up, you feel a whole lot better.

This few days were tiring. Watching the N's Student taking their exam makes me think i am gonna take O's like in a month or two time, Seriously its getting stressful till the point i want to give up, but i have to say Mr Lim enlighten me up. Thanks.

Happy Birthday.

2010-09-05T21:46:00.001+08:00

Out with Yipeng and Sextoys!
lol.
Good luck to him on N's tomorrow

2010-09-02T20:48:00.001+08:00

i am always in this awkward situation -,-
darn it

2010-09-01T23:09:00.000+08:00

Are you upset, little friend? Have you been lying awake worrying? Well, don’t worry, I’m here. The flood waters will recede, the famine will end, the sun will shine tomorrow, and I will always be here to take care of you. (Barb Watson)

2010-08-30T10:29:00.000+08:00

quote quote from diana again!
caaaaandiiy:
Before she knew you, she was a completely different person. She was so scared and so worried. She has seen the effects of love and what it could do to people. All she’s seen is heartbreak and sadness. For her alone has always been better. And then suddenly, there you came walking in. She saw you, and there was this thing. I don’t know what it is but you got it, so please don’t hurt her. She’s never been happier, she doesn’t stop talking about you, please don’t do her wrong. Things don’t have to be perfect but if you know before hand that your intentions are nothing but bad then leave, leave before she gets hurts. You make her feel safe and warm. You give her that sense of security she’s been longing for. I’m not saying to be mister prince charming, what I’m saying is just to treat her right. She’s been through a lot and she deserves nothing but the best. Her heart is so big and her kindness is so warm. Be that guy who makes her fall in love. Be that guy who lets her know that all guys aren’t the same. Make her smile, do things with her, tell her you love her. Play with her, massage her, let her know she’s special. Let her get it, let her finally put the pieces to the puzzle together. Make her finally get love. Show her, tell her that when you look into her eyes she’s the greatest girl you’ve ever seen. Cherish her and she shall do the same. Love her and she’ll love you more. Treat her right and she’ll treat you better. It’s a girls nature to often care more and love, make it the opposite. You should care more and love more, so she can do nothing but smile, so she can love you even more. Seriously, take good care of her - She’s a lovely girl. (stevenrosas:)

2010-08-30T09:08:00.000+08:00

Quote from thenamesdiana.tumblr.com

Boy: What happened?
Girl: He broke up with me. In front of everyone.
Boy: That bastard. I’m gunna screw him over tomorrow.
Girl: No, please don’t. There’s enough drama already.
Boy:He broke your heart! He made you cry more than once already. He deserves to get beat up.
Girl: No, please. I don’t want any drama.
Boy:I have to. He’s just gunna keep f*cking up some other girl’s life after this.
Girl: Please, I’m begging you don’t. I appreciate it, but please. Stop being so protective.
Boy: Protective? Of course I have to be protective. Because if I’m not here to watch over you, who will? I’m the only one that’s gunna be by your side always and forever. But you still don’t know it. You still don’t understand why, do you? You don’t understand why I’m willing to do whatever it takes to please you. After all this time, you still don’t know. Well, you wanna know why? I love you, I freaking love you. Ever since I met you. I’ve never stopped loving you. I’ve seen you cry over so many guys, seen you “love” them and whatnot. And it hurts me so fucking much, but because I love you, because I care for you, I haven’t walked away. I’ve stayed with you, to make sure you’d be happy. I wanted you to always be happy, for you to always smile. And because I love you, I’ve done everything I could for you. And it kills me inside, everyday, to know that you don’t feel the same way, and you never will.

Yea, i agree I'm a asshole too

2010-08-28T21:58:00.001+08:00

Grab this from ferdowsi (:

Post more soon.

Media?

2010-08-27T14:31:00.006+08:00

Remember the time when u are only 12 years old? Primary 6, u know nothing about sex, body part and looking at girls/guys. Remember, that u can talk with your friend in a childish tone and no one will criticize u? Remember that tomorrow is another day of fun?

Nowadays, because of the media, everything had became fucked up, We say vulgar words like nobodies business. We smoke cigarette to feel cool and got addicted to it in the process. We join gang to avoid being bully and end up bullying people instead. Boy and girl relationship became important to some people that they would do anything to get one. People would think they know love at the age of 13-18 saying love will last long. Well, some would give up their virginity to some cool handsome guys because he's muscular and had tattoo.

I overheard a conversation today, its was a young couple at the age of 15-16 and their guy friend, i heard the girl saying to the guy friend : Can u don't keep purposely touch my neh?
i don't know why, but i feel so taken aback and just feel that she sounds like a slut and whatever?. But the question is why did i feel this way, its all because of media, Who am i to say someone a slut without knowing them. Even so, knowing them does not give me the authority to call anyone a slut or a bastard. Media make it so easy to say slut and bastard when in fact they change the way of everything, so if i talk to a lot of girls, that made me a playboy? so if a girl hang out with guys only, that made her a slut?. No, and those who know love from media like titanic think again, if u think at the age of 15 u feel like marrying him or her, are u ready to have a commitment? are you ready to spend your entire life with him or her? To be there for her or him on difficult times.

For me , i know i am affected by the media and i don't know love. I could only imagine love like titanic which is not true at all.

2010-08-22T21:47:00.003+08:00

Today
I was happy at first, due something just totally turn my mood off,
affected by just one small distraction which ruin my afternoon.
Somehow, i feel i am just not good enough. inferior

Forever isn't long at all when I'm with you

2010-08-22T08:31:00.002+08:00

Am i a dumbass ? -,-

I finally finish up my fnn coursework, but its is through a hard and torturing way,
I have to redo like around 5-6 time because something in the Microsoft words are corrupted which i spend a whole day doing nth and made me tired ttm
Well what done is done, Now have to turn on to God mode yet again like how syafiq did

2010-08-19T20:27:00.000+08:00

Oh , sometimes i question myself.
Whats more to say?

My missing puzzle piece

2010-08-15T21:04:00.002+08:00

Bought a slipper todayyyyyy!
i love it so much its black and redddddd!
nowadays i am so in love with redddd!
School tomorrow yet again!
got to brace up yet again.

2010-08-14T16:55:00.002+08:00

Time to blog.

Nth much this few days,
booked for prom
well all set to get the stuff for prom soon, Well Mock test is coming!
wish me luck!. i need it lol.

2010-08-09T23:06:00.002+08:00

Well, Had a good shoot out session with a center and guard (:
Today, considered great workout yet again!
Though muscle ache , i enjoyed it :D

1 more hour and its gone.

august 9th.

2010-08-09T00:19:00.001+08:00

Done. Nights

rmb the moment

2010-08-08T22:19:00.002+08:00

Oh. today is such a refreshing day as i spend on my own,
have a great workout session, have a run around 3.2 km , never improve or deprove
thats bad!
sad, today never go countdown.
lol

9th is coming :O

So what if i am childish? that makes u an adult?

2010-08-07T17:32:00.001+08:00

Power house tonight !
Yes yes, i need a breather.

2010-08-07T00:45:00.003+08:00

serious i find this generation so fucked up. People are together just for the sake of it, not because they have actually fallen in love. No more heart felt letters that would take a week to recieve. Now people send texts saying "Luv yooh bbygirl." Real deep. Some girls walk around with no respect for themselves and see nothing wrong with it. Some guys walk around blaring chavy music and try to impress their 'friends' with nothing. And everything is just going to go downhill from here. What the fuck is wrong with these people? I can't understand. When did everything start to change into this horrible mess that we now call Surviving the teenage life

Sucks sucks sucks.
I want STAY OVERNIGHT!

2010-08-03T17:06:00.002+08:00

"People changed. And often they become the persons they said they will never be. "
See things i never want to see today.
Fuck, why don't things just go according to plan.
Come school, Study, End school. Go home.
have to see people i don't want see. fuck.
Maybe it would hurt lesser or not at all, if I didn't care.

Get a room PLEASE .

Reality check.

2010-08-01T07:52:00.002+08:00

Went St James powerstation just now.
Well, finally i understand why clubbing is so fun.
The only worst and bad thing is, if u are sober its no fun. IMAGINE yourself standing all day long in the middle of the crowd. Everyone was like to dancing and you are so sober you just don't have the feel.
NVM, i am coming again!
This time round, Drunk time!

i manage to think about this the whole night.
i found out i do. Yes. i do.

Sad but true

2010-07-29T18:48:00.004+08:00

Heard everyone saying i am doing a bad thing. That i am a asshole bastard.
well, i could only say, I was never a good person anyway.
i am just a normal human who do not know whats right or wrong.
Hate me like all you want. Hopefully those haters please tell me straight in the face. I am selfish, that is sad but truth. Loyalty? i am someone who believe in it last time but now? i am not sure. Trust? all i can trust is myself.
Its a sad thing because i thought i could leave fajar with a good reputation, but i don't think i would ever have anymore. Sad but true. Now the best thing i could do is get out of this hell hold shit place, and start anew in poly. What if my past come back and haunt me? Don't really know. But what i know, is People do change, no matter how hard it is to accept it. I don't really like changes. But i know as day go by, i am more becoming a person i don't really like. But what can i do about it? I just have to learn the fact and move on with it. The funny thing this time is, i admit i am a asshole, but i never regret doing it. Being nice doesn't work most of the time, Because i tried. Nevermind about all this, Me knowing you at first place counts as fate. But too bad, things turn out this way. Well Shit happens.

Ohya almost forget, to those haters thanks for viewing my blog

asshole me.

Tan Velle! Happy Birthday ^^

2010-07-27T19:33:00.001+08:00

Flunk my Physic test 4/51
omg, how?

Did u even do that last time?

2010-07-26T20:39:00.003+08:00

❒ taken ❒ single ✔ i hate everyone

Oh my, English oral is coming way soon
and i still sleep during english lesson, ARhhhh
i need Miss Joseph! lol.

I don't want to bother, Yes i can do it !
its past tense now.

2010-07-25T21:06:00.002+08:00

Its been long since i went out with both of them
Especially Billy !
lol, wonder what he's up to lately.

Realize a couple of thing,
Who am i to hate, to love or even to criticize
The world is ever changing and here i am.
Gotta do something thats worth doing, Living life to the fullest till the end of the world.
Got my karma on laughing someone having leg cramp, end up i got it also. -,-
Well, thats all for today.
Bye.

2010-07-24T23:50:00.002+08:00

I miss having chalets With themmmm :D

Well today i have to say i enjoy it.
Gone for Dinner at some unknown Place at Toa Payoh to celebrate my Grandma's Birthday, Cut cake and rush to Meet Amelea and co. i manage to sing Two songs from the ktv.
Oh i love ktv ttm, :D weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
gonna go ktv soon!

When the one day, i will totally forget about this .

2010-07-24T09:07:00.002+08:00

Oh is this what i deserve ? this dream has been going on for 5 days already.
i don't want this. I don't. This is just plain torture.

i want to learn from this quote:
Laugh when you can, apologize when you should. Know that grudges are a waste of happiness. Let go of what you cannot change. Love deeply, forgive quickly, take some chances. Give all you have got. Always try to take things in your stride and smile when you’re feeling sad. Remember what you’ve got but also love and cherish what you have now. Give all that you have, because life is too short to be anything else but happy.

2010-07-23T19:54:00.003+08:00

i don't feel happy this way,
okay regretted writing those things in my tumblr, and i am saying sorry.
yup, i don't want to be a hater, i don't want.
Oh, exam exam , u are reaching soon to my doorstep.

sorry.

2010-07-21T21:02:00.001+08:00

Maybe one day we'll end up talking again. Maybe one day we'll go back to being just friends.

2010-07-20T16:10:00.004+08:00

So true! :D lol.
Ever wonder being a bad role model for the kids?
i had. LOL.
Now, i just hope, whatever i do, i could be a great role model to the kids.
Its time for a change i guess.
Changing to on onsugar soon, And soon saying good bye to this beloved blog.

Ihy.

2010-07-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

I want one!,
Okay, seriously bored now. :X

2010-07-17T23:25:00.002+08:00

Walk away, No more!

i had a new friend! LJQ!

2010-07-15T17:13:00.002+08:00

Finishing up my Execution part B.

I panic at first but after awhile i started to get things done.
Last to finish though.

i have said enough, seen enough, hear enough.
I'm through with this.

2010-07-14T20:24:00.001+08:00

i know my Chinese oral did not went well, But atleast i tried,
okay, Tomorrow I'm cooking muffins!

At long last.

2010-07-12T19:05:00.002+08:00

Its a shame it ended this way
Well the better Team won!
Seriously school should start at 9am
I would be more energetic and ready for class
i know i should not look away, why the fuck am i shy about.
maybe what we need is a restart don't you think?

OH dear prom, should i?

2010-07-11T22:14:00.000+08:00

Watch this Movie
A nice movie,
But it don't happen in real life isn't it ?

2010-07-11T16:12:00.000+08:00

Same here.

2010-07-11T00:31:00.000+08:00

i mean me is kinda pathetic

2010-07-10T23:17:00.002+08:00

Having a Headache,
Depress.

2010-07-08T19:21:00.003+08:00

1 Fact of the day.
Every Time when Me and Bryan Tan walk home, upon reaching his house, We will be plotting to hit each other for a last hit before going our separate ways. I know its stupid, but its how we communicated (:

Tomorrow Having Private Tuition at home 6pm, Okay finally my Science is gonna have some help!

Won't put so much hope.

2010-07-05T18:48:00.002+08:00

Next week start my tuition ? !

yes i guess, Good luck to me !

2010-07-04T23:13:00.003+08:00

Even if this film came out last year, i never did have the chance to watch it.
But finally today i watched it. Oh envy him, He got the chance to undo his mistake,
i wish i had.
i hate being 18 -.-

Feeling is Best describe with Music

2010-07-03T16:32:00.002+08:00

Can't believe i am leaving this school in a few months time.
Can't believe i am going my o-level oral at 14th

Finally i decided to get Tuition teacher for my Science, Yes, I DID IT
okay, around next week? now i am saying i be gonna make it.
i want when during i collect my result slip i be saying: I made it.

Don't stop.

2010-07-02T20:09:00.003+08:00

Always let my Emotion take the better of me,
Now i know which subject i am strong,
Humanity!
great,
Today did not paid attention in My social studies lesson due to hearing something that just never was good to me. Why do i even bother. seriously.
Get over it. -,- Damn it if i let it continue, this is gonna cost me my O level i bet.
And the worst part is, there’s no one else to blame.

2010-07-01T17:16:00.000+08:00

If i can start over my life, i would still go down the same path.
without hesitating.

2010-06-30T16:56:00.000+08:00

Bother or not to bother?
my heart told me to bother.
The pain doesn't hurt that much when i see you less often.
great. But not today.

2010-06-29T17:00:00.001+08:00

Lucky for me i am getting my study mode back on.
i am just so tired at times, i don't know why. -,-
Well good luck, going out soon. Yup.
bye.

Not worth anymore.

2010-06-27T22:27:00.003+08:00

A hair cut for school reopen
Time to meet all my peers again. A time when we can see people being serious on their study in our class. I still remember 2008 which is my first Sec 4 badge. God that class really can't make it, seriously. Only a few studied, I am sleeping like pig everyday. Teachers given up on us literally. And our reward? Retained, Dropout and ITE. Here i am this year at Sec 5. Walking back the right path. Poly? Yeah i want but saying is nothing as action must be taken to achieved it. Saw some of my friend today, all either ITE or Dropout. I don't know should i be happy or worried if i can make it this year. Yes, i need to work on physics and Bio. Say that quite a few times but not taking any action :/ its now or never...

2010-06-25T18:20:00.003+08:00

Understand this
I'm not Talented enough
So i have to work twice as hard.
So i can't even handle Man-marked
How am i suppose to even tryout for a team.
Damn.
maybe i should just give up.
i know its being coward to give up.
i am afraid.
i am afraid.

2010-06-24T18:00:00.004+08:00

Watched Karate kid,
Definitely not a waste.
Really teaches us alot.
i hate bullies

Mr. Han: You've already accomplished everything you wanted to. Why do you still want to fight?
Dre Parker: Because win or lose, I don't want to be afraid any more. And I'm still afraid.

2010-06-22T10:55:00.004+08:00

Watched Toy Story Yesterday with my small cousins,
Well it was an Okay show, Ya.

Hang out with my Buddys after that.
Seriously i feel So much better when i am with them.
I don't have to force myself to be someone I'm not.
Maybe i don't even know myself anymore.
Who am i?

2010-06-20T12:05:00.003+08:00

Mad BBQ yesterday
We all Starving like never eat for many days as we queue for the FoodS!
haha! Yup nice.

2010-06-19T10:30:00.001+08:00

I struggle to even Do some history essay question
i have so much distraction
Drinks, Computer, Bed, Food.
and many more u can imagine
lol.
Thankfully i manage to do 1 ESSAY kk!
TRM ANOTHER ESSAY!

2010-06-18T22:11:00.001+08:00

Today was Too much Boredom for me
But it pass fast.
used the computer all day long, Feel like rotting.
Trm have bbq
Happy birthday Mom. Sorry i dun have money to buy u a cake.